Crazy Ass Dreams

My dreams haven't made sense since I was in Middle school but last nights dreams just were downright hilarious. First dream, I was some black chick(am I the only one who is never herself in dreams) escaping from a prison/hospital. Yes it was some weird dual building that was a prison and a hospital...now that I think about it I think there was a shopping center somewhere around there as well. Anyway, I got caught once trying to escape and then later that same day I did escape. Ended up at my old house in south central L.A. where 4 of my kids live and stayed there for awhile. Got some sleep, some money, some clothes, a car and left just in the nick of time before the police showed up. Someone I drove, walked, and swam all the way to Mexico, yep I did all three. I'm guessing years passed because I eventually died and ended up in hip hop heaven where everybody knows my name. I was hanging out with Salt and Peppa, Tupac, and some 90's R*B groups I used to like when I was a kid....
Then my mind went blank for a few hours and another dream started; this one had me walking home from school which is weird seeing as how my University is like all the way on the other side of the city. Anyway myself and a couple of other peeps passed a little white cat being attacked and eaten by a white bobcat. WTF you ask? Well so do I. Of course I was pissed and wanted to kill the evil bobcat for eating its little cat cousin but I was totally girling out and just crying. So some teenage boy picked up a few rocks and threw it at crazy bobcat cannibal and kept hitting it in the head until it let go. I was so happy that I would have given him dream sex if I wasn't so concerned with the cat. I wrapped it up in a white blanket, how did I get a blanket? Hell if I know, then I walked my way to the animal hospital next to the Dairy Queen and who do I run into? My mom walking our two dogs, which is weird seeing as how we only have one dog; btw the dogs were white as well. We made it to the hospital and by the time I walked through the door, the cat that had previously been mauled and cut up by a bobcat just had a small cut on its front leg....HaHa am I crazy or what? And what's up with all the white, I hate white.

Scared sh1tless

I graduated from university late in December with a B.A. in history. Now I have to tiptoe my way into the world of jobs and careers and I am scared shitless. As of right now I am freaking out about the prospect of job interviewing. I am not fast on my feet and it is hard for me to think of smart witty things to say. People tell me to practice it before hand and I plan to get started soon but I always find myself continuously putting it off. Plus two peeps I know said I need to self-analyze myself! Oh great just what I need! I'm 25years old and I don't know what I am good at or what I enjoy. How the hell am I supposed to get started on this self-analysis crap?
Oh and another thing, I want to get my Master's in International Relations but I am terrified at the mere thought of the GRE! I had a 3.95GPA at University, it would have been a 4.0 if it wasn't for that damn East Asian class and that dumb ass teacher. And believe me when I say it was his fault not mine, you want me to elaborate then write me and I will. But despite my GPA I am terrible at those standardized tests. I did horribly on the SATs, and I thought my hell of having to take tests like that were over. But noooooooooooooo, now I have to worry about this GRE crap! Screw you bastards! Just take my thousands of dollars and give me my Master's education. Oh is there anyone else going through this hell of not knowing what to do with their life?

Kristin vs Erica, Lois vs Lana

I have been watching Smallville religiously for about a year. I have seen all the episodes thanx to dvds. And lately I have constantly been comparing Lois(Erica) to Lana(Kristin). First, we all know Clark is going to end up with Lois so that's not up for discussion; but I just can't help but feel that Lois doesn't compare to Lana on the physical beauty scale, attire, mannerisms, and voice department. Yeah everyone says Erica/Lois is hotter because she actually has a woman's body but apart from that, Kristin just has the better face. Since Erica has finally been allowed to dye her hair back to its natural dark color she has definitely become more beautiful. I am in no way saying that Erica is ugly, I just think when compared to Kristin she doesn't come close. Maybe it has to do with Kristin being half Chinese and that gives her an exotic look. Of course the Lois character kills the Lana character when it comes to personality because Lois actually has one, but this blog is solely on the physical shallow end of the spectrum. I just can't help but wish Lois looked like Natalie Dormer, Holly Valance, Serinda Swan, Gwen Stefani...and had the style of Victoria Beckham, Gwen, or those girls in "The Devil Wears Prada". And let's not even get started on Erica's voice while she is playing Lois. Sometimes the only word I can use to describe it is squaking.
Lois in other forms of media hasn't been much better, Kate Bosworth not only played the worse Lois Lane in history but she didn't even look good doing it. She dressed like a school marm and had the worst hair ever. I swear she was going through her anorexic phase because she was as skinny as a bean pole.
Margot Kidder played opposite one of the most beautiful Superman's ever and she was so plain bordering on ugly, especially in Superman II where she looked like she could be Clark's mother. I know Lois is supposed to be dedicated to her work, but would it kill them to give the girl some style?
What "my" Smallville Lois looks like
-Leighton Meester
-Scarlett Johansson
-Natalie Dormer
-Gwen Stefani
-Holly Valance
-Katherine Heigl
Movies/TV Show/Older Lois Lane
-Kate Winslet
-Rachel Weisz
-Natalie Dormer
-Gwen Stefani
-Holly Valance
-Natalie Dormer
-Genevieve Bujold
-Charisma Carpenter
-Alyssa Milano

Now I lay Me Down To Sleep

Randomness much....But last night I had a dream that I was being chased by a Yellow Jacket(the grandaddy of bees). I ran into a room and tried to shut the door on it, but it kept pushing the door open again with its nose. Yes for some reason it had a nose. Yeah its random but I decided to share it with you guys anyway.

Excuse me Mrs. Simpson

Dear Mrs. Ashley Simpson,
I am here to inform you of your civic and moral duty to inform the general public who the name of your plastic surgeon is! That has got to be one of the best nose jobs I have ever seen in my life. After years of Michael Jackson's, Ashley Tisdale's, and Jennifer Grey's this is the first nose job I have ever seen that not only looks better than the original, but looks like natural to boot! As some commentator once said, "it looks like the nose she should have been born with". Dang girl how can you keep that man or woman's name to yourself. They look like they are good enough to fix Courtney Love, Melanie Griffith, Mickey Rooney, he can't help Michael Jackson. He's a surgeon not a god. To wrap this up, girl since I first saw that new nose I couldn't help but think how fantastic you look. It doesn't give you an air if fakeness like Pamela or Carmen's boobs, nor an "who the hell are you feel" like Jennifer's nose. You were fine and pretty before but now you look fantastic. I have always known, but never understood how a nose could change a face so drastically. You were pretty before, you are beautiful now.

Leave Rhianna ALONE!!!!!!!!

Ok I think most of us agree that what Chris IS ACCUSED of doing to Rhianna was horrible. And most of us girls have been taught that if he hits you once he will do it again. So Rhianna apparently has decided to take Chris back or they are just hanging out together. I personally don't think she should take him back if he truly did hit her. But most of all I realize that this is not my gawd damn life! How dare people like Lisa Bloom and that AJ idiot from Showbiz Tonight treat this situation like Rhianna owes them her soul or they own her! Nobody who is not associated with Rhianna, is not her best friend, second cousin twice removed, or has the same blood running threw their veins has any right to be outraged by how this woman lives her life! You can be disappointed all you want, but it is her life to live not yours! If people continue to look to Miley Cyrus, Vanessa Hudgens, Britney Spears and Rhianna to raise their daughters they are going to be raising a generation of idiotic, shallow, hill billy skanks with the IQ of a lemon. These girls are human beings and they deserve to live their lives just like every other human being! I'm sick of Miley Cyrus having to apologize every other month for doing something stupid; she is a teenager and a stupid one at that! None of these girls, including Rhianna should have to live their lives and sacrifice their happiness because some self centered spoiled daughter of a lawyer turned spotlight stealer:coughGloriaAllred: thinks she writes the book on female role models.
Let me make this clear, I do not think Rhianna should go back to Chris; but I sure as hell am not going to tell her how to live her life or walk around outraged because she doesn't do what I want her to do.

Violence in Juarez? I've hardly noticed

I live right next to the Mexican border and I am disappointed in myself because I have hardly noticed the violence that is going on right next door. Off and on for years I have heard about the bodies of dead women they have found in the deserts; but I never paid much attention to it. I have also heard snippets of the violence that is occurring right now involving the drug cartels. But for some reason it never registered with me how horrible things were and how as a human being and as someone who lives so close to these events, I should probably give a crap more than I should! I would probably have cared and known more about this situation if I paid any attention to my local news stations, but I really hate them and most of the time the issues they discuss I could care less about. I always focus on the national news CNN, MSNBC, Fox News, and they hardly give any airtime to the issue. I have a friend who was so afraid that she refused to move back with her parents to Juarez and decided to stay with friends in the US. It must be bad when a 20+ college student who like me is greatly attached to their parents decides to no longer live with them. I can only imagine how fearful she is about what danger they are in. I've received little snippets about what is going on over there:
That the problems are also occurring in Chihuahua
Political leaders have been killed
The Mexican army is going to be deployed
The US army is going to be deployed
That the US has given a firm warning that if the violence spreads across the border they will take military action.
That vigilantes gave their political leaders a deadline to get the situation under control or else they will take matters into their own hands.
I definitely need to get more information about what is going on over there and I am ashamed of myself for having the mentality that if it doesn't affect me I don't care. This situation as well as the mass graves of Mexican women has provided another element to the illegal immigration debate for me. What exactly can Americans do about this situation? You hear about celebrities like George Clooney and Bono running around talking about Darfur and Aids in Africa and their goal is to essentially give airtime to the situation. Should the same thing be done for what is going on in Mexico? Should the American government even get involved or mind it's own business? Does the Mexican government and their citizens even trust that if the US gets involved that they will not do what they have done throughout history and never leave them alone, step all over the country just so the US can prosper? Should we just mind our own business and pray and let the Mexican government deal with their problems?
I definitely need and want more info on this situation. Can anyone say google.