Scared sh1tless

I graduated from university late in December with a B.A. in history. Now I have to tiptoe my way into the world of jobs and careers and I am scared shitless. As of right now I am freaking out about the prospect of job interviewing. I am not fast on my feet and it is hard for me to think of smart witty things to say. People tell me to practice it before hand and I plan to get started soon but I always find myself continuously putting it off. Plus two peeps I know said I need to self-analyze myself! Oh great just what I need! I'm 25years old and I don't know what I am good at or what I enjoy. How the hell am I supposed to get started on this self-analysis crap?
Oh and another thing, I want to get my Master's in International Relations but I am terrified at the mere thought of the GRE! I had a 3.95GPA at University, it would have been a 4.0 if it wasn't for that damn East Asian class and that dumb ass teacher. And believe me when I say it was his fault not mine, you want me to elaborate then write me and I will. But despite my GPA I am terrible at those standardized tests. I did horribly on the SATs, and I thought my hell of having to take tests like that were over. But noooooooooooooo, now I have to worry about this GRE crap! Screw you bastards! Just take my thousands of dollars and give me my Master's education. Oh is there anyone else going through this hell of not knowing what to do with their life?

Kristin vs Erica, Lois vs Lana

I have been watching Smallville religiously for about a year. I have seen all the episodes thanx to dvds. And lately I have constantly been comparing Lois(Erica) to Lana(Kristin). First, we all know Clark is going to end up with Lois so that's not up for discussion; but I just can't help but feel that Lois doesn't compare to Lana on the physical beauty scale, attire, mannerisms, and voice department. Yeah everyone says Erica/Lois is hotter because she actually has a woman's body but apart from that, Kristin just has the better face. Since Erica has finally been allowed to dye her hair back to its natural dark color she has definitely become more beautiful. I am in no way saying that Erica is ugly, I just think when compared to Kristin she doesn't come close. Maybe it has to do with Kristin being half Chinese and that gives her an exotic look. Of course the Lois character kills the Lana character when it comes to personality because Lois actually has one, but this blog is solely on the physical shallow end of the spectrum. I just can't help but wish Lois looked like Natalie Dormer, Holly Valance, Serinda Swan, Gwen Stefani...and had the style of Victoria Beckham, Gwen, or those girls in "The Devil Wears Prada". And let's not even get started on Erica's voice while she is playing Lois. Sometimes the only word I can use to describe it is squaking.
Lois in other forms of media hasn't been much better, Kate Bosworth not only played the worse Lois Lane in history but she didn't even look good doing it. She dressed like a school marm and had the worst hair ever. I swear she was going through her anorexic phase because she was as skinny as a bean pole.
Margot Kidder played opposite one of the most beautiful Superman's ever and she was so plain bordering on ugly, especially in Superman II where she looked like she could be Clark's mother. I know Lois is supposed to be dedicated to her work, but would it kill them to give the girl some style?
What "my" Smallville Lois looks like
-Leighton Meester
-Scarlett Johansson
-Natalie Dormer
-Gwen Stefani
-Holly Valance
-Katherine Heigl
Movies/TV Show/Older Lois Lane
-Kate Winslet
-Rachel Weisz
-Natalie Dormer
-Gwen Stefani
-Holly Valance
-Natalie Dormer
-Genevieve Bujold
-Charisma Carpenter
-Alyssa Milano

Now I lay Me Down To Sleep

Randomness much....But last night I had a dream that I was being chased by a Yellow Jacket(the grandaddy of bees). I ran into a room and tried to shut the door on it, but it kept pushing the door open again with its nose. Yes for some reason it had a nose. Yeah its random but I decided to share it with you guys anyway.

Excuse me Mrs. Simpson

Dear Mrs. Ashley Simpson,
I am here to inform you of your civic and moral duty to inform the general public who the name of your plastic surgeon is! That has got to be one of the best nose jobs I have ever seen in my life. After years of Michael Jackson's, Ashley Tisdale's, and Jennifer Grey's this is the first nose job I have ever seen that not only looks better than the original, but looks like natural to boot! As some commentator once said, "it looks like the nose she should have been born with". Dang girl how can you keep that man or woman's name to yourself. They look like they are good enough to fix Courtney Love, Melanie Griffith, Mickey Rooney, he can't help Michael Jackson. He's a surgeon not a god. To wrap this up, girl since I first saw that new nose I couldn't help but think how fantastic you look. It doesn't give you an air if fakeness like Pamela or Carmen's boobs, nor an "who the hell are you feel" like Jennifer's nose. You were fine and pretty before but now you look fantastic. I have always known, but never understood how a nose could change a face so drastically. You were pretty before, you are beautiful now.

Leave Rhianna ALONE!!!!!!!!

Ok I think most of us agree that what Chris IS ACCUSED of doing to Rhianna was horrible. And most of us girls have been taught that if he hits you once he will do it again. So Rhianna apparently has decided to take Chris back or they are just hanging out together. I personally don't think she should take him back if he truly did hit her. But most of all I realize that this is not my gawd damn life! How dare people like Lisa Bloom and that AJ idiot from Showbiz Tonight treat this situation like Rhianna owes them her soul or they own her! Nobody who is not associated with Rhianna, is not her best friend, second cousin twice removed, or has the same blood running threw their veins has any right to be outraged by how this woman lives her life! You can be disappointed all you want, but it is her life to live not yours! If people continue to look to Miley Cyrus, Vanessa Hudgens, Britney Spears and Rhianna to raise their daughters they are going to be raising a generation of idiotic, shallow, hill billy skanks with the IQ of a lemon. These girls are human beings and they deserve to live their lives just like every other human being! I'm sick of Miley Cyrus having to apologize every other month for doing something stupid; she is a teenager and a stupid one at that! None of these girls, including Rhianna should have to live their lives and sacrifice their happiness because some self centered spoiled daughter of a lawyer turned spotlight stealer:coughGloriaAllred: thinks she writes the book on female role models.
Let me make this clear, I do not think Rhianna should go back to Chris; but I sure as hell am not going to tell her how to live her life or walk around outraged because she doesn't do what I want her to do.

Violence in Juarez? I've hardly noticed

I live right next to the Mexican border and I am disappointed in myself because I have hardly noticed the violence that is going on right next door. Off and on for years I have heard about the bodies of dead women they have found in the deserts; but I never paid much attention to it. I have also heard snippets of the violence that is occurring right now involving the drug cartels. But for some reason it never registered with me how horrible things were and how as a human being and as someone who lives so close to these events, I should probably give a crap more than I should! I would probably have cared and known more about this situation if I paid any attention to my local news stations, but I really hate them and most of the time the issues they discuss I could care less about. I always focus on the national news CNN, MSNBC, Fox News, and they hardly give any airtime to the issue. I have a friend who was so afraid that she refused to move back with her parents to Juarez and decided to stay with friends in the US. It must be bad when a 20+ college student who like me is greatly attached to their parents decides to no longer live with them. I can only imagine how fearful she is about what danger they are in. I've received little snippets about what is going on over there:
That the problems are also occurring in Chihuahua
Political leaders have been killed
The Mexican army is going to be deployed
The US army is going to be deployed
That the US has given a firm warning that if the violence spreads across the border they will take military action.
That vigilantes gave their political leaders a deadline to get the situation under control or else they will take matters into their own hands.
I definitely need to get more information about what is going on over there and I am ashamed of myself for having the mentality that if it doesn't affect me I don't care. This situation as well as the mass graves of Mexican women has provided another element to the illegal immigration debate for me. What exactly can Americans do about this situation? You hear about celebrities like George Clooney and Bono running around talking about Darfur and Aids in Africa and their goal is to essentially give airtime to the situation. Should the same thing be done for what is going on in Mexico? Should the American government even get involved or mind it's own business? Does the Mexican government and their citizens even trust that if the US gets involved that they will not do what they have done throughout history and never leave them alone, step all over the country just so the US can prosper? Should we just mind our own business and pray and let the Mexican government deal with their problems?
I definitely need and want more info on this situation. Can anyone say google.

Best Supporting Actor?

Alright, I am just going to go right out and say this. Would Heath Ledger have won the Oscar if he wasn't dead? I'm not saying his performance in The Dark Knight wasn't good but I am not convinced it wa Oscar worthy. I admit I never got the big hoopla about TDK and why everyone was so in love with it. Heath's Joker was very good I just question if the fact that he is dead played a part in the voting?

Oscar Fashion

Best

Marisa Tomei
It is a breathtaking color that switches between white, silver, champagne...The patterns are something I have never seen before. At first it is off putting but that they are different is what makes them beautiful. I adore the one shoulder as well as the flowing train.

Kate Winslet:
Another beautiful silver dress although this one is tinged with gray. And once again there is another one shoulder gown. This gown would simply be beautiful if it were not for the black lace on the left side that is designed with flowers; that is what makes it stunning.

Anne Hathaway:
She glows! There are few dresses that could be worn to a wedding, to the prom, as a bride, and to the Oscars. Anne found one and she looks fantastic.

Zac Efron:
One of the few times where he looks fantastic. The men who go to these awards have so few choices in what they can wear. A nice suit or a tux; Zac looks great in his tux. He looks sophisticated while still looking young. He put some of the older guys too shame.

Hugh Jackman:
Another man wearing a simple tux, but wearing it so brilliantly!

Makes me think he could have been James Bond.

Brad Pitt:
This is a shinier version of a suit that is similar to Zac and Hugh's. If it wasn't for that gawd awful mustache he would look great.

Taraji Henson:

I think I've seen a dress similar to this before, but I can't remember where. It kind of reminds me of the wedding dress Donald Trump's wife wore; only more elegant. I don't know what the dress is made of silk or satin, or what the patterns are but I like it. It is simple but still beautiful. Another of the many women who showed her shoulder's last night, but Taraji has decided to put on a rather fierce necklace, and it works for her. Because her dress is so simple it makes sense to wear one piece of jewlery that catches your attention.

Jennifer Aniston:
I wonder if anyone is going to count how many women had no sleeves on their gowns. Well what can I say I love the look. This dress with white mixed with silver sparkles is beautiful on Jennifer. The one thing I can't stand is her hair. I don't know what she always has to wear her hair down, but that poorly put together braid across the top is not helping matters. She should have worn her hair up with a tiny jewel around her neck. Despite the hair, she still looks great. And once again I love the patterns and design of the dress.

Reese Witherspoon:
Blue and black are my favorite colors, so this dress is already a winner to me based simply on that. But the various ways the colors, designs, and patterns intermingle in the dress is also what makes me like it. They all seem to bleed in and out of each other harmoniously. And the train and how the colors look in it just made my jaw drop. This is a dress that is taking a risk and I beleive the risk worked, but it is an acquired taste. I will also give her credit for putting a new twist on the style of the evening, strapless.

Penelope Cruz:
I'm not good with colors so I don't know exactly what color this is, some sort of off white mixture. I love the simplicity mixed with the extravagent designs. The color compliments her complexion and it all worked for her.

Queen Latifah:

There were a few women who wore lace around the bottom part of their dress or in their train. This is the only time I think it worked and didn't look like a bad throwback to the 80's. I like how the little bits of silver around the bust and hip. It makes the gown stand out more. It gives it a feel of a small lamp on in the far corner of a dark room.

Virginia Madsen:

And sometimes simple is just simply a good thing. Red on a red carpet is a risk imo and she pulled it off. There is just something about this dress that makes me not give a damn about anything else but the person in it. She wears it beautifully! I love the color, the train, the belt, the shiny texture everything. The earings also do a wonderful justice to the outfit and is like the cherry on top.

Worst

Heidi Klum:

Good gawd Heidi you are on the Red Carpet at the Oscars not the catwalk! The color is horrible! What is that red mixed with orange?!?! I can't believe that someone actually drew this dress and looked at it and said, hey that will work! The only thing good about this is her shoes, too bad it had to go with this horrendous attempt at style. Poor shoes, they will never live this down.

Marion Cottilard

I don't care which fashion idiot decided the 80's were back. This dress looks horrible simply because it is a throwback to the 80's. Like Miley's dress it takes a turn for the worst as soon as you hit below the belt. It looks like three people could have tripped over her skirts. This isn't gone with the wind, there is no need to have a hundred skirts around your feet! I swear I had a dress like this when I was seven! The frill under dress made my legs itch. Someone give her some shoulder pads and some big hair and send her back to 1989.

Angelina Jolie
This gown was forgettable and I would have put Angelina on my, I never knew she was there list if it were not for the fit of the gown. It looks awful on her, it does nothing for her shape on the contrary it makes her look like she doesn't have a shape. I expect more from Angelina which is why she is going on my list.

Miley Cyrus

The top is nice, and yay! someone had sleeves! But below the belt is a mess. This dress is like Miley's personality, it's just too out there and too over the top bordering on obnoxious. Like Miley this dress needs some Ritalin. But the belt and above the belt is very beautiful. If we could only see her from the bellybutton up I would say it is the best she has ever looked. I think what doesn't make this gown work is the crazy lilly pads framing the skirt.

Whoopi Goldberg
Oh please do I even have to explain? Gawd I understand she goes by the name Whoopi so its obvious it's all a joke to her, but I was not only disgusted but almost insulted and hell if I know why. Maybe because I'm black, maybe because I'm a woman, I don't know.

Sarah Jessica Parker:

She looks like she is a ballerina who took a wrong turn and got lost. Not only is the tutu bottom horrible, but what is up with the waist area? It looks like one of those dishelveled guys who forgot to stick their shirt in their pants. Sarah like Angelina should have known better!

Bridget Fonda:
Did she get this piece of crap from JC Penny!??! Now I shop at JC Penny, but this woman has the money and means to try harder. It looks like she just rolled out of bed, was making herself some popcorn then all of a sudden decided to go the Oscars. The color, fit, pattern, texture, everything about this can only be described as one word....Ugly!

CHIPPENDALES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Good gawd I saw Chippendales perform on Wednesday of this week. Good gawd "I'm in love with a stripper"! Or maybe 4 strippers.

This is one of them, the only one that I liked whose name I could actually find. While I was there I just referred to him as the one with the tattoo on his back. Thank you Steve Kim for putting your videos on Youtube otherwise I would never have known his name.

Half the time I was there I was embarrassed because of my gender, good gawd we can no longer call men dogs because we lose all our class and inhibitions alcohol or no alcohol. I admit I went a little bit crazy but not psycho, I was just chasing the man above around the club floor as he got groped by non stop women. I was checking out his tattoo as well and kept touching it. I am such a tat addict now. Then I was purposely getting in there way when they ran off the stage so they would have to ask me to move and one of them touched me on the back so he could move me out of the way. HAHA SWEET! Lord knows who it was, I didn't bring my camera(like the idiot I am) and I left my phone in the car! I had to go CIA to find the guy in the picture, once again thank you Steve. The friend I went with liked Elvin, or she did until he copped an attitude with her. I'll have to ask if he's still feeling him. One of them also complimented by breast...all I said was thank you but what I really should have said is you can touch them if I can touch yours. Oh why did God give me intelligence but no people skills?

After Wednesday I will no longer go gay for Katherine or Portia, I'm still questioning my stance on Natalie Portman though. After seeing a bunch of naked guys running around I realized that I can be nothing but strictly dickly baby. Thank God I didn't drink anything or I would have turned into a total slut and done god knows what with some of them....

Oh also after Wednesday I have also decided that I am going to lose weight!

Lois and Clark

Clark Kent on Smallville is a bastard, a pussy whipped idiot, a whiner and a god damn brat! I officially hate that mother fucker more than I have hated anyone else on that show. I don't even hate Lana as much as I hate Clark. I do not know who to be more made at, Clark the fictional character, or the real writers who come up with this crap that we have to watch! On Thursday when Power aired I was fuming; now I have let the anger simmer down a little...very little. Lois Lane(btw I hate the name Lois) is too damn good for Clark Kent. His obsession with Lana Lang is dangerous and sickening. He nearly kisses Lois one day then as soon as Lana shows up he completely forgets about her, oh hell no! Lois deserves so much better and she should go out there and find it. These bastard writers better not have her come back still feeling all gooey about Clark; she better have seen him for what he truly is and is ready to move on. Lois needs a man and Clark is nothing more than a boy in a man's body.

My day so far...

Right now I am listening to Usher's "Confessions". I just got done with a ride back to the 90's and was listening to Tevin Campbell, BoyzIIMen, Shai, En Vouge, Immature. Man I miss the 90s! Does anyone else out there think the 90s were much better than the 21st century? So far the only thing that can be used to describe this new decade is George Bush and terrorist. Oh how I miss Clinton and his cigar play with interns. I really need to get off my lazy ass and find me a job, I want to work I just don't want to go through the process of having to find a job, it gives me even worse of a headache than I already have. It's the same thing with guys and girls, I want to date I just don't want to get off my ass and put myself out there. Plus I have too much emotional baggage to trust anybody. I also must say that I am still pissed off that for me to get into grad school I have to take that damn GRE! I cannot take those kind of tests, I screwed up on the SATs so horribly that I refuse to tell anybody what the score was.
Someone want to tell me what the hell HD is? Rents got a gigantic tv with an HD box, how its different from my DVR is anyone's guess. I am not into technology at all, I got my first iPod last year; I definitely fit the stereotype of the ditzy girl when it comes to technology. I do know I want a blackberry and a smaller prettier laptop and a sidekick. I need to get me some rich friends or a rich boyfriend to buy these things for me.

Angelina and Brad

I have decided to take Angelina Jolie off of my Hoe's of Hollywood list and it is all thanks to Jennifer Aniston. She has made me believe that Angelina and Brad did not have an affair while he was still married to Jennifer. It's clear they had feelings but if the situation happened how I think it happened I have more respect for all three involved. If you have feelings for a married man or a man involved in a relationship, step aside and let him and his significant other figure things out, then when that is done you can step back in. Clearly Jennifer and Angelina are never going to be best friends, but I do not believe anymore that Angelina stole Brad from her. So the new #1 Hoe of Hollywood is Tori Spelling.

Why Nick Jonas?

I have tried for over a year to figure out why Nick Jonas is the favorite of the Jonas Brothers, and I still don't see it. Is it just because of his age? He's the closest in age to their fan base as opposed to Kevin and Joe who are already adults? I usually get why the favorite is the favorite even though I don't like them; I got why everyone loved Taylor Hanson, Nick Carter, Justin Timberlake, Ashley Parker Angel, heck I even got why everyone loved Ginger Spice! But I don't see it with Nick and the only thing I can guess is it has to be his age because Kevin and Joe are so much better looking than him. Yes I admit Kevin and Joe are the one's I favor but no matter who my favorite was in a flash in the pan teen idol group I still understood why the favorite was the favorite...I don't see it with Nick. Kevin is sometimes cute sometimes downright sexy and plus he is a white boy with a big butt! How that happened I will never know. Besides the physical he is also the one who seems to be the nicest with the most consistent personality(can't really expect that from Nick he's only 16). Joe is the hott exotic looking one. I've hung out at JB forums and he is the one who is usually joked about being adopted because he looks so different from the other 2 and his parents(actually he looks like his dad). I think these jokes occur so much because he straightens his hair and has tan skin. If the Jonas Brothers weren't the Jonas Brothers and just were normal kids at my school I would gawk at Joe, be attracted to Kevin if he sat next to me in class and I got to joke around with him and just not even notice Nick. Please someone explain this attraction to him? Even Kim Kardashian thinks he's cute! Am I just blind? I could list the things that cause me to not find him appealing but I remember he is only a 16yr old kid and why would I want hin to ever see such a thing about him...not that they would come to this blog but I would never even give him a chance to see it.
I'm not saying I don't like Nick, I like all three of them, I just really want to understand why the majority of girls are so taken with him because I honestly don't get it and there is no vindictiveness in my questioning.

Keeps Gettin Better? No..no it doesn't

Just saw Christina Aguilera's video for "Keeps Gettin Better". Who the hell came up with the crap?!?! It is gawd awful, no wonder the single flopped. The video doesn't make any sense which would be easier to endure if it was actually a good video. It's half high tech/futuristic b.s. and half I'm just going to be lazy. Who ever directed it should go back to school and find a new career. And what was up with her wannabe skankerella CatWoman...damn Christina I know you have bad taste in almost everything but couldn't you have come up with a better costume? I've seen more attractive one's in WalMart at Halloween. I haven't seen such a bad futuristic video since BSB's Larger Than Life. How did she fall so far from such a great video as "Hurt" to this crap!!!! I guess it hits me so hard because I actually liked the song.